My mom and sister Breana had driven me to Rexburg, ID where I will begin a new school year at BYU-I. I watched them drive away after waving them good-bye for a while. My heart is sad that they have left, but I'm grateful to be here in Idaho for college so that I may prepare myself for future events. This is a new beginning with new classes, new roommates, new teachers and new apartment. But, I have a feeling that there are all good things that will come into my life.
I hope that my heart will be healed enough once I get to know my roommates and feel accepted of them unconditionally. Sometimes it is hard for me to get to know other people when I am hurt from the experiences with my cousins who were exclusive to me in the past. I just pray for the strength and courage to give other people chances and see the kind of people they are. When I feel loved, included and accepted of them, it helps me to forget about the pain and try to move on. It does hurt when I think about it, but I always try to do something that will replace that feeling of hatred, hurt and anger.
Before I left for Idaho, I was given a blessing by my dear, loving friend and bishop that made me feel close to the Lord. I was given promises from Him that are so uplifting. In that blessing:
1) I will do well in school.
2) I am a great young woman.
3) I'm never alone.
4) My roommates will be kind to me when I am kind to them.
5) I will be positive.
6) I will be close to the Lord through prayer, scriptures, good books and music.
7) I will have peace in my heart, mind and soul.
8) I should only focus on the people who care about me and love me.
9) I will be a good friend to those around me.
Before my bishop went home, he told me in his own words that as long as I do my best, that's all it matters. I strongly believe that because it is true and I've done my best in things, especially school. I've also learned that when you're on this earth and striving to be like Christ, it always matters to do your best. Especially when you're trying to come home with honor and success despite the times of errors.
It's also important to me that I live my life because when you don't make the best of things, you're not really living life. According to my Grandpa Meyer, "Life is meant to be lived. It is not meant to be wasted." That's what I look forward to this semester: make the best of it.
When going through trials such as homesickness and discouragement, all I can do is pray and keep my chin up with a smile on my face. That is the best I can do and what our Heavenly Father asks of us.
