Today I woke up to begin a new day of school. Before I went to my classes, I took the time to wish my sister, Melina, a Happy Birthday because it's her big day. She's 31! I'm very thankful I get to be her sister even though she drives me nuts when she gives me facials. Yet, she's taught me that our bodies need to be healthy and clean so we can show others our inner beauty and have healthy, strong lives. I didn't get to celebrate with her, but I know she had a great birthday; she got to celebrate with her husband, Andrew, our loving mom, and sister, Breana.
I was happy to wish Nina a Happy Birthday, but today was a hard day for me because I was still struggling on forgiving my cousins. Last night, I had a dream; I was walking on a grassy hill with a backpack on. While I was focusing on my destination, I heard someone calling my name; I looked up and realized that my cousins were the ones calling me. They tried to catch up with me, but I ran off because I didn't want to talk to them. It wasn't the first time I dreamt of something like that.
All day I kept thinking about that dream and the cousins. Anger was starting to fill my heart again because I was deeply hurt when I wasn't included in the wedding this past August. But, more than that, I had to get rid of this feeling, so I had to do something that would come in handy: prayer. I asked Heavenly Father for the strength and courage to forgive. While I was praying, I felt as if this weight was getting less heavy. Some peace and love were coming to me.
It's hard to forgive someone after they do something that's very hurtful, especially if it hurts you deeply, but it hurts more when you don't forgive and move on. I've learned from experience that to forgive doesn't mean to forget or pardon; it means to move on with faith, love and peace.
For me right now, it feels good to forgive because I can make a fresh start on things and move on with a happy soul, heart and mind.
"I, the Lord, will forgive whom I will forgive, but of you it is required to forgive all men."
~Doctrine and Covenants 64: 10
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